as i was browsing some of my pics during summer i found a few which hauled my attention ... and here is the pic ...

 

darn ... as i look at the pic all i can say to myself is that ... I'M FUCKING STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... STUPID... 

 

 

it has been said a million times that "life is short"... it has been written a million times that "life is short"... and every time i hear or see the phrase "life is short"... a few questions enter my curious mind... does life really end here in this world? is nothing more in our lives? is our death our final breath? as these questions enter my curious mind... answers continuously pass through my mind... for me... life doesn't end in this world of the living... there is more to life... our death is not our final breath... once we die... we depart this world of the living... but it doesn't mean that we won't be breathing anymore... it doesn't mean that we will no longer live... there is more to life in after life... many people have already departed this world of the living... but there journey didn't end here... they have continued there journey in the realm of the unforgotten... it's a realm where souls reside... it's a realm where the souls of those who has departed the world of the living continue there journey... there are more things to discover or rediscover in the realm of the unforgotten... the realm of the unforgotten is the dream place of all man on earth... each individual wants to be in a place of peace and harmony... and that place can only be found in the realm of the unforgotten... the realm of the unforgotten is a place filled with beautiful flowers... it's also filled with animals that are tame... animals that u can play with... and most of all it a place where time is infinite... no night... no day... and most of all... there are no problems in the realm of the unforgotten... i have to admit that i have been in the realm of the unforgotten... i've been there once or twice... and during those times... i have seen a lot of beautiful things... things that made my mind decide not to go back anymore to the world of the living... but of course it's not yet time for me to depart the world of the living... i still have a lot of things to do and to accomplish... but despite the fact of the obligations that i have in the world of the living... i really want to stay in the realm of the unforgotten for it was the only place where time is infinite... it is the only place where there are no troubles of any kind... it has really been a wild ride in the realm of the unforgotten... there are so many things that i have discovered and there are also things that i have rediscovered... i forgot to share an experience i had in the realm of the unforgotten... i guess i'll share it right now... while i was in the realm of the unforgotten... i remembered that i went to a place where i saw a screen... it was a screen that showed me the good memories that i had in the world of the living... well i guess that's enough elaboration about the realm of the unforgotten... i might say something that shouldn't be said... there are a few things that i knew about the realm of the unforgotten that shouldn't be said to the mortal ones... for it will spoil all the fun and adventure... so i guess... i'll be ending this stupid story... this story is crap anyway... -end-

i can't hide my emotions longer... i really want to tell you what i truly feel... i really want to tell you what my heart shouts... but i can't find the proper time... i can't find the proper place... to say it... to tell you the truth... i'm scared... i'm scared of telling you what i really feel... i'm scared of telling you what my heart shouts... for i am unsure of your reaction... i don't want to shock you or anything... its just that... i really want to say it all... for i really can't control my emotions any longer... if i continue to hide this... i might go crazy... but not in a negative aspect... but not in a positive aspect either... it's a combination of both...

i really want to tell you what i feel... i really want to tell you what my heart is shouting... but how... when...

i don't want to shock you... i just want you to be happy... that's all i want...

i know that you don't visit my blog site... and i guess this is the opportunity to say what i really want to say to you... what i really feel about you...

the truth is you make my world go round... you make my life complete... you make me happy when i am sad... it's really amazing how you bring out the best in me... i have never been like this before... this is the first time that i became me... even though we don't see each other much... i can still see you in my heart... because that is where i keep you... because that is the only safe place that i know...

a princess like you should live in a castle... a castle wherein there is a prince that will protect and comfort you... a castle where you can find happiness... i know i'm not yet fit to be a prince... but i know that my heart can be your castle... and you could live there forever... without doubts and troubles...

i really love you... and will always will... i really miss you... and i'm missing you more... i want to be with you forever... i want to share the remaining years of my life with you...

please be with me forever... please don't leave me in a world where there is no life... no happiness... for the world that i find life and happiness... is in you... and in you alone...

i love you very much...

You Are 25 Years Old

25 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

You Are a Beagle Puppy

Cheerful, energetic, and happy go lucky. And your sense of smell is absolutely amazing!

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

Your Element Is Fire

Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame. You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out. You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable. You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go. Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive. Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.